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For V

2012-01-25T01:50:00.001+08:00

n here's the long awaited video i made for V n clips of her kissing 18 guys on her 18th birthday i hope u like it i know it's not very nicely edited but i tried my best heh love u V sorry for the delay x

CNY DAY 1 n 2

2012-01-24T23:21:00.001+08:00

Happy Lunar New Year to everyone n i hope it has been a good 2 days n your relatives r feeling rich so they can give bigger angpows but even if they don't hey angpow is only a small part of the celebration it's about getting together celebrating a new year n i like how my family is i know i'm not a big part of it but i feel happy being there so yeah hope yours went well 'cause i know this year was simple n sweet for me another 13 days of lunar new year quick head to your friend's place n get some angpow from their parents heheheheh x

p.s hahahhaaahahah n if u've noticed i had the same smile in almost every photo uhm.. #okcan

V's bimbo day

2012-01-20T15:15:00.000+08:00

V celebrated her birthday early, so we went over to her place after they came n did the card with me at my place! We missed the stop at Rosewood n had to walk all the way back ha ha i think we got the bimbo virus so anyway we got her house n yay surprised her with the mega pink n fluffy n everything nice card that we made for her! got a little awkward when we went in as we were pretty late but the food cooked by her parents were really nice i loveeeee the food ok then we chill around take pictures n all before we cut the cake! The cake was super pretty hello kitty cake as u can see above awwwww so cute love it it tasted really good as well! I had like 2-3 slices of it ha ha ha fat is me ok then we all chill n went to the room n take more photos listen to music n all invites Iz n Zhenyu n before long Matt n his friend came to join us n we drank n chill the night away i hope V had a great time there wasn't any big surprises with nasty birthday bashes but V u know we love u hehe stay cheerful <3<3<3

p/s her birthday video is still in the making, please be patient! ;)

#wishlist 1

2012-01-13T11:16:00.001+08:00

Credits: Nastygal.com

I really like this look it matches with my green doc marts as well yums x

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fucking sexy don't you think?

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saw this somewhere else n i really wanted it!! now it's on tumblr omg these shorts r the sex i want!!!

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this looks so unique n sexy omg so nice i want!!

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I need blazers for formal wear next semester n this.is.the.sex

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this is so adorable i love it it spices up a nice tank top or if you're daring just a bralet would do!

Credits: http://www.dmusastore.com/c-3-womens.aspx

This is adorable too omg so cute it could match the above outfit! Maryjanes ftw!!

That's all for my top ten items on my wishlist anyone wants to make January a better one? I could make do with a Valentine's gift ;)

a l i v e

2012-01-10T00:05:00.000+08:00

Just to show that i'm alive n well n doing stupid things like covers n making a fool of myself but oh well here it goes

New Year's Eve

2012-01-02T18:30:00.001+08:00

Spent New Year's Eve in town... Again. Such a boohoo we're only 17 (except for Jess) if not we could've went to Siloso Beach Party n have fun but even so, i had fun it was a nice New Year's Eve. Haven't really had a merry festive occasions last year n i'm glad this year it was different. First stop after landing at Somerset we went to Gongcha but before that met up with Iz n ZY for a smoke. Thought it'd be rather boring without a movie so we decided to catch a movie n we went for 'We bought a zoo'. I personally thought it was an awesome movie. I'd rate it 10*/10 no joke for me, the movie was heartwarming. n to those who love animals i bet it'd be as awesome for u as it were for me. So yeah we caught the movie at 12.05 so technically that was our first movie of 2012! n it was such a good one n that made me very very happy ;)

so backtrack to buying the tickets, we went to 313 to buy J's mom's birthday present n then headed to Marché for dinner. Thought of waiting for V n Rach to come before eating but we were too hungry n they were too late so we tucked in! Nothing fancy though we were all pretty broke :'( so after we finished eating, then did V n rach arrived ha ha they were 5 hours late! but yeah that didn't ruin our mood or anything so we were fine they ate n we left to Cine to walk around went to Gongcha again chill wait for the clock to strike 12 n wished each other Happy New Year! n headed for the movie. The night didn't end there. We went for supper at Macs n J went off to find her boy boy n we thought of catching the NR back. But Good Lord the amount of people is insanely crazily uhm.. huge. So we changed our plans n walked. ha ha no plans no anything just walk. Walked to Plaza Sing, then to CHIJMES then to Bras Basah then we stopped at City hall to take the first train back home. We were all drained n we reached home at around 7? Gf jxn stayed over n that ended my New Year's Eve.

Hope yours went well n were much better if not as good as mine, Happy New Year everyone x

New Year Resolutions

2012-01-02T17:59:00.000+08:00

Get more T A T T O O S
Read the bible at least once every week
Make more effort to meet up with old friends
Take more risks
Think before I act (i've a feeling i'm gonna breach this one)
Another piercing ('cause i'm 18 n i'm gonna have 18 piercings!!)
Less selfish n more love
More time & money management!!
More overseas trips!
More spontaneous fun decisions n anything everything!

2011

2011-12-30T08:33:00.002+08:00

Here's a sum up of the whole entire 2011:
January
- O LEVEL RESULTS OMG hahaha i remember feeling so afraid n praying at the same time hoping for God's mercy n i braved the night at Tiffany's before we headed to school together n got our results ha ha n i got 18! not bad for someone who has slacked off the entire upper sec n drown in own's sorrow n try to cope w exams hehehe
- had a terrible haircut n i cried over it n felt like shit for days ha ha ha
- not forgetting i started work at M1!
- n i got into RP! Was really unhappy about it sigh sigh but oh well quite nonchalant too ha
February
- CHINESE NEW YEARRRRRR ang bao lai lai lai

- papa's birthday hehe

- oh n since school hasn't started i read like a lot of good books like every off day i will spend the day at home just reading no joke ha h a no life but i like it
- met my primary school friends as well hehe good times <3

March
- did my first tattoo with xe by Jiaxi
- n i got my MACBOOK PRO hehehehe <3
- went to an underage party with Jolyn ha ha ha funny
- watched plays hehe i love theatre
- kok heng's birthday!! always meeting up every year for his birthday hehe me like
- omg I WENT TO USS WITH XIAO EN RINA N TIFFANYYYYYYYYYYY <3 it was awesome like the best day of our lives i really had a lot of fun that day n it all feels so magical

- Acc Syahilah to cut her hair short! hehe best friends with short hair awesomezxcs

- CLASS CHALETTTTTTTTTTT 2e3! really fun hehe poker wild wild wet chill night cycle to changi buy alcohol drink drank dare bbq drink drank dare round 2 heh cried a bit then back to normal i had a lot of fun that few days too miss those people <3

- ha ha ha went for Ben & Jerry's interview n praying that i get the job!

April

- Eldest sister's wedding! Was a bridesmaid n omg was it tiringggggggggg but fun something happened to papa that got me damn frightened but thank God everything's ok so yeah Happy Marriage <3

- BKK WITH RINAAAAAAAAAA hehe first time to bkk it was nice not much to spend but company was great n more than i could ask for especially with May that brought us around too

- Orientation day ha ha RP student now omg was so nervous don't know who i'd meet don't know anyone don't know what to do who to talk to so scary

- MY BIRTHDDDAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY WOOHOO hahaha ok i read the post i wrote before my birthday post n i was so gloomy then i went to my birthday post n it was so .... different ha ha i was very very happy thank u for the surprise guys ;) i celebrated my birthday at the night safari n i had fun with the girls(tiffany, xe n rina!) thank u for making time for me <3 especially grateful for the doc marts i received as my birthday present my first doc marts n hopefully more to come x

- I WENT FOR MAROON FIVE'S CONCERT OMG OMG OMG OMG hehe it was my birthday gift from everyone thank u guys my secondary school friends muacks <3

- then school started W47R was my first class n my classmates were pretty good i had fun being in class with them n it was awesome, especially my TAITAIs ha ha (i'm the youngest)

- did my 2nd tattoo!
May
- mini blog war with hw ha ha sorry about that
- Xe's birthday sorry it was so... un-grand i know u don't like/feel awkward w this kind of things n i don't really know how to make things better but i hope u feel my intention <3

- ha ha ha liked S n well i had a really good time with him just chilling around talking our hearts out n spending time together ;) but idk i guess we were too dramatic not meant to be
- Rina's Birthday hehehe also nothing big but i hope my presence was enough to make you feel special hahahaha like i some big fuck huh no la i meant you are important to me <3

June
- went to CHC too n met quite a few nice people thank God
- then begins my clubbing spree(?) ha ha ha with peggy xanthe charmaine michelle chelsia

- went to Sentosa for the 2nd time this year! ha ha with peggy andrew gary n donald

- mega kitty event w my friends sold 11 tix to them n earned a few bucks ;)

- summer romance i was very happy u made me very happy but i guess that was it i don't know anymore but what we had, wasn't nothing thank u for the memories u've given me i felt loved

July

- celebrated Eugene's birthday ha ha kena trashed like mad

- Pei's hen's night! clubbing with your sister.. #theawkwardmoment ha ha ha

- FINAL-FUCKING-LY DID MY NAVAL PIERCING WOOHOO thanks Jolyn for paying for it as my belated birthday present u da bestxzxcs <3

- Pei's wedding! Happy Marriage n yay to finding true love <3

- Birthday Outing with Syahilah hehehehe to. the. FROG. FARM <3

August

- Zhen's Birthday! <3 Celebrated it at Changi Airport's swensens

-National Day with my primary school friends <3 it was super hot n i got tanned after a day at Marina Barrage but it was worth it 'cause i had so much fun just chilling around n spending time with them ah i miss them so much now!

- Ph with Jessica n Liling n Charmaine ha ha another night of dancing woohoo

- First time wearing formal outfit for school!

September

- went to Waterfront n celebrated ZY & Iz's birthday h a ha was so drunk i nearly jumped from 2nd floor ha ha ha ok maintain

- ktv with sisters

- started drinking with jessica isaac zy matthew n the rest

- volunteered for marathons ha ha fucking tired but good experience

- Xan's birthday! hehe it's nothing much but i hope u enjoyed yourself n had a great time with us taitais <3 miss u miss u

-4e3 Class BBQ + birthday surprise celebration for Andrei my hubby!

- Birthday chalet for Andrei my hubby again too <3 this time with different group of friends!

- T I O M A N with Jessica n friends hehehehe awesomezxcs had a lot of fun there sometimes we do nothing really chill like crazy n then we drink at night n smoke n we got lost in the jungle (thanks to me) n snorkeled omg it was so fun n drink again n played with fire extinguisher n star gazed omg it was beautiful n we missed the bus back to Singapore had to wait 2 hours

October

- thus began our weekly town ritual (w jessica jxn xprisxc vnwt n others) <3

- start of semester 2 new classmates different classes everyday new faci but everything was great i really adore my classmates i could never ask for more n it was really awesome knowing them field trips were super fun n classes never boring 'cause the boys r so entertaining laughters everyday thank u Y1S2 <3

- went for Chunkfest this year w the ben & jerry's people woohoo

- PHUKET WITH MY FAMILYYYYYY <3 super fun even though my eyes were being a fucking bitch swollen n i couldn't see a single shit had to wear specs ugh but the trip was awesome had roadside food, parasailed, explored caves! A perfect getaway thank u sisters for making the trip possible for me <3

- Halloween! nothing much this year just to town with the girls n C to watch PA3 n that's it but great company ;)

- Lunch w Jabez to celebrate his birthday w xe n shiwei ;)

November

- 11.11.11 celebrated with the girls n C hehe makan-ed at NYDC n sheesha-ed nothing much though was pretty spoiler 'cause we were all so excited but still an awesome day <3

- ha ha went to jxn's place n cooked up a storm w the girls i had a great time cooking n eating omg wasn't it delicious yum yum yum our pasta, soup n ice cream for dessert!

- Salina's Birthday celebrated in school w her friends n us hehe <3 happy 18th ;)

- USS with family hhehehe love the rides omg awesomezxcs x

December

- volunteered for Standard Chartered Marathon

- field trips n more field trips

- Secret Santa in class was awesome loved the christmas atmosphere tq Salina for the socks!

- Zoo with Syahilah to celebrate her birthday! it was really fun n i had a great time not been to the zoo in a few years i think the last time i went was also with her? around 3 years ago or 4? hahaha yes tiring but loved it

- Sunway Lagoon with the girls!! Esther xe n Tiffany <3 had a good time a nice getaway from Singapore shopped everyday played the rides n chillax more overseas trip when we're richer <3

- Jessica's birthday chalet! I hope u had a blast n well never forget us muahahaha

- X'mas Eve w the girls hehehe awesome christmas in town thank u for a wonderful x'mas n thank u gf jxntoh for the present hehe

-steamboat dinner at my place again weeeeee~

-countdown with the girls!

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n not to forget the people who made my 2011 so much fun, excitement, enjoyment, love, awesome. (in order of the month)

Xiao 'En: Thank u for never giving up on me even when times r tough. I may not really know u after all that we've been through, but we're still good friends, the best of friends even. So for 2011, I thank u for being there for me. Thank u for all the moments when i feel so down n u were there. Thank u for being a part of my 2011 n i hope that u'll play a big part in making 2012 wonderful for me too i love you x

Yong Qi: I've never really mentioned u but u were always there we'd meet for dinner, stay overs, n i thank u for being there for me too. When i was really down, when i feel vulnerable, I'd think of u n u'll be the one i turn to. Thank u for always standing by me n believing in me. Thank u for making 2011 a better year n being such a guardian angel for me i love you x

Primary Sch Friends (Xiao Qian, Sharon, Jolyn, Pei Yu, Hui min, You Ping n the rest): thank u for being a part of my 2011 too hanging out with you guys made me feel better n i thank God that our friendship lasted so long i pray that 2012 will bring us more great memories <3

Tiffany: Thank u for sticking by me through my toughest time n even though we did not really spend a lot of time together this year, I thank God that our friendship did not die out thank u for bring me to your church n showing me God's love as well thank u for 2011 n i pray that 2012 we'd spend more time with each other n create more memories i love you x

Rina: This year passes so quickly we didn't have time to meet frequently at all I'm sorry if i ever seem to have neglected u n i pray n hope that 2012 we'd hang out more i promise!! thank u for being here for me i know that even if we don't meet up often, if i needed u, u'd be there. thank u Rina i love you x

Esther: Thank u for 2011, thank u for the sunway lagoon trip, thank u for not judging me n thank u for hanging around. Your A's are coming round next year n i pray that you'd get good grades amen!

Secondary School Friends (Marie, Gurvin, Cheng Yan, Andrei, Alfred, Zhen wei, Eugene, Jerome n the rest): thanks for 2011 glad that we managed to meet up n spend time together hoping for more time together in 2012 where everyone grows up more n be more matured ha ha ha

Syahilah: As usual, we had our annual birthday outings n also we met up on other occasions as well! Yay to that 2011 was good n we fulfilled our promises to each other sorry that i didn't have any gift to u nor did i drew a card in 2012 i will try my best to get them both as it's your 18th birthday!! i love you x

Taitais (Charmaine, Chelsia, Peggy n Xanthe) n Michelle: thank u for 2011! this year brought me u guys n i am grateful for that thank u for bringing me into your world showing me clubbing n everything else we may have fallen apart but i thank God for those times where we were very close to each other may we never forget each other n in 2012, we'll find true love( if u haven't already found one) xoxo

Jessica: thank u for an awesome 2011 without u my 2011 wouldn't be so perfect. thank u for bringing me clubbing, drinking as well. thank u for introducing me to ur friends n for bringing me so much fun 2011 rocks n u were a big part of it thank u for being there i love you x

The girls (jxn, xprisxc, vnwt): thank u for spending time w me almost every week (or everyday for a week ha ha gf thanks hehe) n thank u for bringing me so much laughter, so much enjoyment. I have always wanted a clique of girlfriends n i have found y'all thank u for 2011 u've made it so much better i love u girls x

Rach, PatPatPattty n lilting n Sze Pei n the rest of any girls in my life now: thank u for 2011, for hanging out with me, for making me laugh, for entertaining me ha ha thank u <3

Jabez: thank u for 2011 too, for the occasional meet ups, ice creams, n everything. Thank u for being here for me. 2011 has been a better year n u were a part of it too thank u so much for everything u've done for me God bless you <3

Jacob: thank u for 2011 u've grossed it but made it great too h ah aha it's always a conflicting matter for u but yes u were a part of my great 2011 x

C: thank u for the late part of 2011, tolerating my nonsense, coming all the way down from somewhere so far to rp to hang out n all n for the dinner u've delivered, for the care n concern u've shown. sorry i wasn't good enough n that i had to be so brutal but i hope we're fine n i hope u're doing good right now thank u for 2011 u've done a part in making it well x

A: thank u for 2011 even if u were only here for like a month? but thank u for bringing me so much emotions thank u for making me feel like a little girl again thank u for the dinners u've paid the cab fares from my place thank u for giving me butterflies in my tummy again n making me feel so happy.. again. we were wrong, but i was happy n i guess that was wrong too. But whatever, you made 2011 great, n that's what matters. I really really liked u n it was a pity i had to let u go. Still, thank u n all the best for your everything.

The boys (Iz, ZY, Matthew n the rest n Wen Jie, Aloysius, Sikeen n the rest n any other boys i've missed out): thank u for 2011 hehe y'all were awesome drinking with y'all was fun n i'd love to do it again! ha ha i hope i won't run around too much but hey that's fun what ha ha anyway yes 2011 was good n meeting u guys were awesome a great 2012 to y'all!

Y1S2: Thank u classmates for all the love u've showered n just being a part of the class. I've had a lot of fun being with y'all n i hope that things won't end when we change class next year. All the best to our studies n may we prosper in our education as well as our careers n our personal lives. Thank u for the laughter, boys n thank u for the love, girls.

Family: thank u for everything even when my financial strings were cut, love wasn't. thank u for this family u've given me, God n i will cherish them. I know they love me n i really love them a lot. I'm not good at expressing my feelings well n i hope they know i care a lot.

2011 has been a great year with great friends n family i pray that 2012 will bring more love, more harmony, more peace n definitely more fun. I'm turning 18 next year n going wild *ROAR* ha ha ha kidding so yes goodbye 2011 hello 2012!

J's Birthday

2011-12-28T23:36:00.001+08:00

A belated birthday post for dear Jessica,

I remember our first conversation at Ben & Jerry's, it was about school and age and the Marc Jacobs laptop sleeve you had! h ah ah a ok random but yeah never thought you studied at RP too. & I guess the reason we got closer was because of Ben & Jerry's too? Working together n then we started following each other on twitter. n then we started drinking together ha ha ha hanging out chilling, talking about boys as usual n clubbing together! We even went to Tioman together! That was really fun ;) Then we started hanging out with the girls n from there we started our weekly town rituals ha ha ha we even celebrated 11/11/11 together! Really thank God for knowing u thank u for making my 2011 so awesome I had a lot of fun with you girls/guys this year I really pray n hope next year our friendship will not die out.

& YOU'RE FINALLY LEGALLLLLLL WOOHOO no need to sneak in club w us anymore ha ha

Happy Belated Birthday again ;)

Wishing u happiness n love lots and lots of love from everyone around u I pray n hope that with age brings u maturity, responsibility n that when life throws u lemon, MAKE LEMONADE! hehe

Remember drinking at my place with the guys? ha ha

Tioman memories!

Chilling in town!

To ph!

I.T fair together ha ha

PH agaiiinnnnnnn

Went out w the girls to town~

Hehehe another trip to Chinatown & town w the girls heh

11/11/11

Even though we've only met like mid of this year, I'm very thankful we've gotten so close. I hope that nothing will change when 2012 comes but in fact, we'll get closer! When times r tough, know that we're here for you, i'm here for you. Don't think otherwise ok? More clubbing more drinking sessions soon hehehehe

i love you <3

Not forgetting your birthday chalet video, here it is:

when did u/i stop

2011-12-27T15:52:00.000+08:00

i don't know what to feel sometimes i don't know what to do sometimes to make it all better do we sing songs to each other or cry our hearts out do we look into each other's eyes and hope to see our reflection inside our soul to see whether we matter so often all we say are words i'm so tired words i give up words i don't want to keep fighting what else to do if we gave up what would be left if we didn't fight nothing all will turn to ashes like photographs burning memories fading nothing my darling n o t h i n g

x'mas eve w the girls

2011-12-27T15:09:00.001+08:00

x'mas eve with the girls we spent it in town met around 4 plus 5? headed off to Cine wanted to go Chambers but decided to chill at Old Town instead. Ate x'mas cookies baked by patpatpattty yum yum they look super cute too! Waited for our princess bimbo vnwt before we did our gift exchange! Guess what I got?! the scheduler i've always wanted from moleskine from my dearest gf hehehe i liked the smaller version of the one that i'm having now n yay i got it woohoo time to plan things for 2012! I hope xprisxc liked the present i gave her! I bought her a pair of snakeskin loafers hehe snakeskingirl94 is she. So after the gift exchange we headed for dins at Fish & Co. we took quite a long time to decide where to eat! Wanted to have dins at Pastamania but there were too many people :'( After dins we chilled at Mandarin Gallery n took pictures while waiting for the clock to strike 12! Nearing 12, we went to Scape to hide out first before going to Cine and hearing the 10 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1 MERRY CHRISTMAS!!~~~ hehe was so happy went to hug the girls and wished 'em all. Ok we all stayed indoors because of the party sprays ha ha pussy r us we don't dare/want to get sprayed fucking gross ew so no but it was fun looking at other people getting sprayed n all but yeah constantly looking out for anyone holding the spray and ready to dash ha ha hilarious so we ended our x'mas walking around Cine and took the NR home tiring and nice day hope everyone's x'mas went well <3

Merry x'mas everyone!

2011-12-25T12:29:00.002+08:00

Here's a fun cover of Jingle Bell Rock that I did with my best friend, S. It's nothing near perfect (for me) so I hope you like it. Something to keep you entertained this christmas. Hope this x'mas brings you joy as much as it did for me.

Zoo videoooooo

2011-12-24T04:52:00.003+08:00

Here's a random video of my trip to the zoo with my best girl, Syahilah. I'm not very good at making videos YET and well, I did it in a hurry too so I hope it's still ok? Hope y'all enjoy it hehehe <3

Sunway Sunway Sunway Lagoon

2011-12-24T04:47:00.003+08:00

Spent the weekend at Sunway Lagoon with Esther, Xe & Tiffany! Esther needed a break from her school work so we decided to go there and play, to shop as well! So day 1 we spent it at the shopping centre nearby and boy was it huge there were massive sales every-fucking-where. No joke. Topshop 1/2 price sales, Mango 1/2 price sales, you name it they've got it! It was crazyyyyyyyyyyyyyy I literally went mad inside Topshop but there weren't any nice things on sales though sigh sigh sigh so yeah I only bought a black top from Topshop. Oh and we kept losing sight of each other. Nearing to the end of the day, Esther and I lost xe and Tiffany! Aiyo that got us panicky but thank God we found them hehe so all ends well.

We spent the next day at Sunway Lagoon! Super excited while we queue to get in. Ok our excitement kinda drained as the people in front of us were taking so long!! But in the end, we got in and started exploring the place! It's actually quite big, but since we only got access to 3 parks, it was kinda boring. The water theme park was fun! Loved the thrill. They've got a lot of rides and I especially enjoyed the 360 degree pirate ship and Vortex thing (just rides that spins you 360). Only Xe and I got on those rides 'cause uhm.. Esther and Tiffany were too afraid!! Oh well.. But other rides were real fun as well , not as thrilling but enjoyable indeed. We spend around 6 hours inside and got bored. I didn't dare to get into the waters because uhm.. Singapore has pampered me too much. hahaha the waters honestly speaking didn't look very clean, so yeah lor. I wouldn't go there a second time 'cause seriously, there's nothing much to do.

We spent the rest of the day at the shopping mall AGAIN and was totally drained. Really. Esther and Xe were walking around shopping for Esther while Tiffany and I died sitting in a yogurt place. We couldn't keep our eyes open!! It's that bad.. But before we go back to the hotel and rest, I suggested going to Charles & Keith to take a look, and omg Xe found me a pair of sandals for RM $39.90 ISN'T THAT CHEAP!?! FUCKING CHEAP I KNOW so I bought it hehehehe so yes that got my energy back up but we ended the night early!

Buffet breakfast again, getting kinda sick of the food so i didn't eat much. & went to shop again. Omg can die hahaha 'cause we were so broke and it's really damn hard to find something for Esther to like/buy so yeah lor. But Esther we still love you hahahahaaha yes and we went into something like Royal Sporting House (It's called Studio R) and I headed over to the Vans section and saw a pair of Vans shoes for RM$80 O-M-G the usual price is RM$229 can you believe it? I had to buy it no matter what! So I spent the last of my money on the shoes. I think it was like 2009 shoes but hey they're nice and cheap and I've finally got my own pair of Vans so i'm happy! That ended my days at KL with the girls! We headed to take the coach back to Singapore and well I had a great time with my girls <3 Till next time xoxo

Secret Santa

2011-12-22T23:03:00.000+08:00

So I backtracked a bit till Thursday. Last day of school I bet everyone was feeling the joy. But my class not only felt the joy of the start of the holidays, but also having to celebrate x'mas in advance with each other. Exchanging gifts and taking pictures with each other. I entered class feeling extremely excited 'cause I wanted to see the expression on Eugene's face as I gave him his x'mas present, Topshop socks! hehehe I hope he likes it. What a surprise to know that Salina's my Santa! hehe she got my the Topshop socks I've always wanted! Yay <3 hehe I could really feel the x'mas vibe. The atmosphere was really good and everyone was feeling cheery with x'mas songs playing in the background it was perfect. Our faci was real good to us as well and the day ended well in school. Really appreciate and thank God for the classmates i have this sem. Really hoping all of us will be able to remain just as good throughout our years in RP <3 love all of you Y1S2 classmates

Zoo with S

2011-12-22T21:55:00.004+08:00

Last friday, the start of the long awaited holiday, I met up with this girl of mine to head to the zoo! We met at 11 boy wasn't that early but the early bird gets the worm right so it was great the weather was accommodating. While we were watching the shows, it started to rain, after awhile it'd stop. As we walked around looking at animals, it didn't rain at all! So all's good. We caught 3 shows out of 4 and every one of them were very enjoyable its nice seeing all the animals so smart able to listen to commands and all the elephant show really got me grinning ear to ear and Sya and i especially loved the part where we got to feed the elephants hehe and the funniest and best part was when S and I were subbing for the orang gutan they were moving around and there was even one that carried the hammock around and our conversation were imagining what the Orang Gutan was saying and yes we laughed our hearts out. Our day at the zoo ended with Ben & Jerry's ice cream wasn't that sinful. The rest of the photos are up on fb you can take a look if you want and I did a video as well! So wait for it! Had a great time with S at the zoo and at my place, we were making covers and all really looking forward to our next outing love you girl <3

#fail covers

2011-12-13T12:11:00.001+08:00

I did this video to compile all the covers I tried to do and well, for fun. Didn't want to let those efforts go to waste but ha ha ha am second-guessing myself for putting this up im in for embarrassment but oh well it's ok hehehehe hope y'all enjoy it ;)

xoxo

2011-12-11T12:16:00.001+08:00

On a secret mission, or not. Hehe Met up with the girls and as usual, we fool around in town and omg best part I finally had my Fried Mars Balls yummy yummy but i must say they were really really sweet other than that we were mostly just chilling in town again and as usual there's nothing much and gf and i were under-dressed for town but it was ok 'cause we bumped into no one but it felt like we were walking across 'Judgement Land' as we went in the direction of Gongcha and all the people hanging there were like looking at us as we walked past possibly wondering what the fuck were we doing there dressed so casually but i seriously don't fucking care so we're all fine and yesterday was a good day looking forward to our next session together <3

pms oh pms

2011-12-08T20:46:00.001+08:00

unlike the module's name it ain't as bad as it sounds. I had a lot of fun and laughter doing the module and that's with the help of the guys who are constantly fooling around. But well this time, we took it out of the classroom. Yes another field trip for us! This time we headed to orchard and had to find a location to fit 30,000 people for a make-believe concert. Fun day indeed, walking around town in boots and all. Too bad we always never could plan a day where everyone of us can hang out together and spend quality time. But i'm sure we'll have time to spend together real soon. Even though our class dinner tomorrow has been called off, I'm sure we're all looking forward for an outing during the holidays and our class chalet on january! Talking about that, i've to go source for it.

Dins @ Chinatown

2011-12-03T13:56:00.001+08:00

Met up with the girls as usual, late, at 630 plus? and we headed to Chinatown. The food was nice! Too bad they run out of hokkien mee :'( was really craving for it! Other than that, we had stingray, oyster omelette, la la , char kway tiao and satay! The CKT was mediocre, nothing much, nothing fancy it tasted ok only? Was quite a disappointment. I really liked the oyster omelette! I thought it tasted good. Hehe I'm so missing it right now ugh ugh ugh ugh oh and not to mention the stingray was just sinful! yum tums tums i like the la la spicy and deliciouso~

After Chinatown the girls had craving for Gong Cha and so we trained to Somerset. Bumped into xe and we took pictures together. Also asked Mary to help us take a group photo yay her <3 Then we started taking more polaroid photos of everyone and I really like them! Went into Cine to get Frolick and the girls signed up for some UOB card because it looked damn chio i have to agree but I decided to think it through before getting it heh oh and we headed to Red Mango and went to the stairs and took pictures, chill. Homed at 11 plus as we were all exhausted! It was a good friday night more of it to come x

Field trip Sentosa

2011-12-01T13:44:00.001+08:00

Had a lot of fun on Tuesday with Y1S2 classmates for our Hospitality module. It was really fucking hot the scorching sun really must maintain omg but other than the sun getting on my skin, it was awesome. Took pictures with them, walked around Sentosa, doing worksheet, exploring places and it started raining! I hate how Singapore have extreme weather changes. One minute you're perspiring non-stop the next you're shivering cold. Headed off to Vivo City for lunch then walked around a bit and went home. Must say it was quite a tiring day but enjoyable indeed. Love the company ;)

S Birthday

2011-12-01T11:35:00.001+08:00

18 shots for the 18 girl <3

Had an awesome day in school celebrating Salina's birthday. Was planning to surprise her with a huge ass card but my plan failed everything got postponed so i could only do it the day after. But well, took lots of polaroid, photos, and had a mini surprise for her. Best part? Nutella Rainbow cupcakes from S mommy! Super love. It tastes yummy and it looks damn good too. Wish I could bake like that but nah i don't have the patience nor the little hands to do it. Really adore my current classmates. It's sad to think we all have to change and adapt to another new environment, new people next semester. Change is ever so constant in Republic Polytechnic. Oh well, all the best to you S, hope your new love will be true. Love and kisses <3

#xmaswishlist

2011-11-23T13:18:00.001+08:00

Photobooth with classmates and ZY hehe great time-killer
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X'mas wish list anyone feeling rich?

1. Katy Perry's Biography

2. Stylemint t shirt

3. Iphone 4s

4. Vans sneakers

5. Cute socks from Topshop

6. Matte lipstick from Topshop

7. Vintage shades

8. Vintage Polaroid

9. Vintage Tee

10. Moleskine 2012 Scheduler

11.11.11

2011-11-15T16:42:00.001+08:00

Dining at NYDC was great, I miss that place so much I love NYDC <3

Started the day in school, late. But didn't miss 11:11 11/11/11 It was nice. Being in class and getting excited when the clock was at 11:10. Prepared to make some wishes and tadah 11:11 came and tweet deck was flooded with 11:11 wishes from all the people I follow. It was heartwarming. Everyone filled with hope for something. Then it started to go downhill, but oh well met the girls (with D) and we headed off to Bugis Junction, NYDC for dinner. Shisha/Sheesha at Haji lane before chilling at Starbucks with J,R,V and C. It wasn't exactly a pleasant day it wasn't exactly a day i would've marked in my diary 'best day of my life' but it wasn't the worst. I've encountered so much more pain in other days so i'm grateful. It was a nice date though, and xprisxc you didn't jinx it ok? It was a nice day and I have hope that this friday will be another better nicer day for all of us too xoxo girls <3

p/s Thanks C for everything ;)

fuck off to the right

2011-11-08T15:34:00.000+08:00

Been hanging out quite frequently with the girls lately, always on a weekend we'll meet, heading to town to have dinner and chill. Recently it has gotten quite boring, having nothing to do in town because of our lack of money it's harder to spend time in town. All we do is sit at Mandarin Gallery and chit chat, do nothing. So we're all thinking of new things to do, new place to chill. Any suggestions?! Oh well, but we're looking forward to this friday it's gonna be a blast! Dress up girls so we can all take pretty pictures. Our plan is to dine at Marché then head off to haji and sheesha! Haven't sheesha-ed in awhile. Should i wear my new green maxi skirt or Topshop pants?

HTM field trip

2011-11-07T02:38:00.002+08:00

I had my first school outing and well, even though it was to Suntec, i had fun. This semester, my classmates were good. Really. Thank God for them. Hope we've more great memories to come. X
More photos will be uploaded on fb!

BFF

2011-11-06T12:28:00.000+08:00

& So I met up with Syahilah recently and we had lunch together before I left for work. The thing about us is that we'll never be awkward with each other. No matter the distance between us, how long we've never met up, how much we're out of each other's life, when we're back together for an outing or for a casual lunch/dinner, we'll always share whatever's happening. Even though we don't know all the details of each other's life, it's still ok. We made the effort to remain best friends, and those annual birthday outings are enough. We complete that with a stay-over at Sya's place. Not forgetting our 'New York Minute' we'll always watch twice every year. It's hilarious. We know like most of the parts to the movie, even mouthing the conversations and laughing over and over again at the same funny parts. I'm Ashley and she's Mary-kate. I'm Jessica and she's Lisa. So yeah, she went to Melbourne and got me lip smackers! Awesome much thanks bff ;) We'll meet up real soon for your birthday outing!

Phuket

2011-11-05T02:05:00.002+08:00

I must say it was an eye-opener trip. I saw things i've never seen, experienced new things and definitely had a great time. It wasn't the best few days of the year as my eyes were not really helping. During the 2nd day, my eyes were swollen red and it was so hard to see. I thought i was gonna be blind. Thank God my eyes got better, but only on the night of day 3. Oh well..
So first day, more about roaming around Patong Beach, looking at the stalls, bargaining, and ended with street food. The night life there is insane. Really. Everywhere you go you get asked to watch Ping Pong show, tiger show and all. One tranny even flashed his/her boobs just to get people to enter the club. It. Was. Psychotic!

2nd day was painful, as well as exciting. Parasailed for the first time, snorkeled and was awed by mother nature with all the sea creatures and the corals. But, it was the start of the swelling of my eyes :'( couldn't really enjoy and take in the wonderful scenery.
After spending our day para-sailing and snorkeling and not to forget, sun-tanning (which i am now still very tanned), we headed back to the hotel, got our stuff and headed out once again and had street food again! Roamed around the streets and my eyes couldn't take it anymore i had to go back early, bathed and sleep.

Day 3 was the day where we got on the ferry and went to visit caves. It was amazing! I've never explored caves before and it seems interesting. It was cool going around in a canoe where the staff would help you row. After visiting 2 caves, we went to James Bond Island, took pictures, and we had free-time to swim too. When we got back to the hotel, we all bathed, and headed to the night market where we had our dinner. Chilled at the hotel room with Singha beer and yes, i fell asleep early too.

While, Day 4 back to Singapore. Had an awesome time with my family X

Footloose!

2011-10-25T15:46:00.002+08:00

On Monday, I was privileged to be given invites to watch the preview of 'Footloose'! & Yes I think you know, it was A-W-E-S-O-M-E! It wasn't those kind of movies you'll be bored at the beginning and hope that when it comes to the middle of the show, things will get better. It got me grinning from the start! I love how they started the movie by filming people's feet as they dance to the beat. Don't know what I mean? Well, go watch it!

Well, I went to check up on 'Footloose' and this is actually a remake of the 'Footloose' from the 1984 classic film! I didn't watch that one and I sure as hell would and well see how the director has changed it. Personally, I felt the male lead wasn't good looking, and I think you'd agree with me. However, he was hot. hahaha when he danced, his charisma will wow you and you'll definitely fall in love with him.

If you're looking for an eye candy, for the guys that is, the female lead, Ariel( her name in the show) is stunning. She has the body, the looks and everything in between. A little bit bitchy I must say, but she's still good to look at. hahha

A little bit about the movie, it's about this small town, Bomont, where a tragic accident involving 5 teenagers changed the whole town. They implemented a rule where loud music weren't allowed, public dancing weren't allowed to! Even I was shocked about this law, I mean seriously, dancing is against the law?! & well, this city boy Ren decided to challenge the ban and which movie doesn't have a love story? Not this one. He fell in love with Ariel!

This is Ren's first friend in Bomont and you'll see how he turned from 'I can't dance' to well, just a fantastic dancer. hahaha No joke. But hey, nothing comes without practice and effort! There's a part where it shows how he started to learn dancing and it wasn't from Ren, watch the movie to find out! It got me laughing out loud and I must say not only me, everyone in the cinema was laughing and cheering!

& well for every movie, there must be a villain, so yeah this is him. A jerk. I thought he was quite cool in the beginning, and well, he turned out to an asshole. Don't know why? Yes GO WATCH THE MOVIEEEEEEEEE

Something i really love about this movie is the dance moves, I thought this would be something like Step Up (another dancing movie). But it wasn't. It was totally different! It's more rock & roll. More country? Yeah. It's just different and i love it! Makes me feel like dancing in my seat.

Other than that, I LOVE THE SOUNDTRACK! I really do. A few of my favorites are 'Dance the night away', 'holding out for a hero' and 'almost paradise'.

So what are you waiting for? Go watch the movie when it comes out in theaters! I'm sure you'll not be disappointed! Thanks omy blog club for this opportunity to watch the preview of this movie!

Be beautiful.

2011-10-12T11:27:00.000+08:00

I wish I could make all my friends happy. I wish I could be enough to make someone else's life beautiful. I wish I could make myself happy. I wish.

Days in town

2011-10-09T14:19:00.004+08:00

Been heading to town a lot these days with the girls. For free hair cut, movie, chill. We're always very hyper and chilling at Mandarin Gallery was as enjoyable as we could make it. Last wednesday, headed to Cine and had Billy Bombers, not as fantastic as I thought it'd be. The texas chicken wasn't to my liking. Jiaxin went to Toni & Guy and we walked around, bought Gongcha and waited for her to be done. Xe came to join us as well, brought her to H&M with Prisc and well she didn't allow us to buy anything! :'( yes i know it's for our good thank you mommy prisc. hehehe

Then on Friday, we headed to town again. We wanted to get movie tickets for Real Steel but it was all sold out, so we had dinner at Pastamania first before wanting to rent a room to watch 'Death Bells 2'. Since it was rather late we decided to skip movie and headed to Mandarin Gallery to chill. Took pictures, chatted, and then we trained home. Wonderful days with the girls. More to come X

2011-10-04T17:20:00.001+08:00

The 4D3N stay in Tioman went by so fast. Time really is starting to get by so quickly that everything seems such a blur. So we got lost in the jungle while getting to the rockfalls, we ate a lot, snacked here and there, drank all the nights away, smoke all our days away, played with fire extinguisher, looked at the stars, so amazing, snorkeled for the first time, fishes all around, fucking salty seawater, jumped from the boat, jumped from the jetty, euphoria, nua here nua there nua everywhere, awesome ice kachang, so sweet, ramly burger so much nicer than Singapore's, lots of cute cats lying around, lots of irritating flies, played with fire extinguisher again, ate delicious dinner on the last day yummy seafood, missed our bus and we had to wait 2 hours for the next bus, fried fish bee hoon under my block, homed.

Surprise Surprise

2011-10-04T12:43:00.002+08:00

Celebrated Andrei's Birthday by opening a chalet as suggested by Eugene. Thanks to Jacob who came all the way down with us to book the damn thing since I wasn't 18 yet I couldn't. It all went pretty well I must say. Even though I left early, I had a fair amount of fun to bring back home to bed with me, to end the day nicely. Nice to see all the boys again, with their childish grins and their boy games, ah memories. Miss all of them, hope we can all hang out soon. Real soon. X

Another night.

2011-10-04T03:45:00.002+08:00

Girls just wanna have fun X

Yes if you could guess it right, it was another night at ph. More pictures on fb to check out!

4e3 Class BBQ

2011-10-01T17:51:00.000+08:00

Taken a few weeks ago during my class BBQ. It went quite smoothly though not many people turned up and Marcus kept blaming himself for not being able to plan a better one. I felt that it was already good enough. I was starving so I was like the first person to eat? Yeah it was nice. Yummy BBQ food thanks to the boys who cooked for us. Especially Wei Xun who stood there barbecuing most of the time. We had quite a lot of leftovers so we played Truth or Dare and our Dare was to eat the food and our Truth is well, you won't wanna know. Hehe & Our surprise birthday celebration for Andrei turned out well! Love you Hubby have a good year ahead <3

Blood for Blood.

2011-09-16T03:50:00.004+08:00

Went out with my sisters and my mom on tuesday. First to accompany my mom to do some massage over at Aljunied. Then we went to Chinatown to find my 2nd sister and we went around different agencies to check out places to unwind while my mom did foot massage. Headed to some traditional dessert store and had durian snow ice. Walked around for a bit, had dinner at some coffee shop. Sent my mom home. Headed to somerset and sang to our heart's content at Cash Studio. It was quite cheap. Around $48 for 3 person from 7-10pm. Free extension till 1am if there isn't a lot of people. Then went back to woodlands. Time spent with my family were worth it. Looking forward to the next. X

Tear me apart.

2011-09-09T03:00:00.001+08:00

Maybe I was too young to see, that the fool is me.

Yes this is what I wear most of the days because of work. If you miss me, please come visit me @ Ben & Jerry's Night Safari. I'm working today and on Sunday. I'll wait for you. Every 11pm when I knock off. I'll look to the entrance and see if you're there. Have an awesome day ahead guys X

Fear.

2011-09-08T04:07:00.000+08:00

I'm starting to be fearful. To be afraid of changes. Afraid of a lot of things. & those things aren't in my span of control. I have no clue, what's going to happen. No idea, how things will end up. I just have to take the risk, trust that this time things will be different. That things will last. Trust that I won't be a disappointment. But sometimes it gets hard, to live up to who you want to be. Sometimes it just seems easier, to hide yourself, away from the world, from everyone. So tired, of having to be around people. So tired, to be living.

I miss you,tb.

2011-09-05T23:29:00.002+08:00

Went out with Jessica and Li ling today to town and we shopped a bit. The dress in the collage? Yes. I bought that Dress at Hula & Co for $25! Nice isn't it? I like the diamond. & I had cup noodles for dinner. Aren't I pathetic. Oh well. Nothing much these days, just work and hanging out with my friends. This week I'll be working again. For 5 days! hehehe Gotta work 'cause it's the holidays! Definitely will be hanging out with my friends and I'm so looking forward to Tioman trip with Jessica in a couple of week's time! Alright. Shall not bore y'all. Have a great week ahead X

What a day.

2011-09-04T14:23:00.000+08:00

started off with me waking up at 1 plus, then at 3 plus, went to prepare and met Jessica and we headed down to City Hall. Had dinner with her brother and her bro's friend, at Thai Express. If I'm not wrong, it's the 2nd time I've had dinner there and I'm not usually fond of Thai food, I prefer western food. I like potatoes. However, it wasn't bad. Pricey no doubt, but it was good. I like it spicy, and the chicken complements the spice and black sauce though the quantity of the rice could've been larger. Off to IT fair and it was expectedly crowded. Got Jess' stuff and we went back to her place, blast musics from her new speakers, then went to Yishun and watched FD5 with Matthew and Isaac. It was hilariously gross and well, I liked it. Been chilling out with 'em a lot recently and well, got to know quite a lot of things I'd rather be clueless about. Oh well, my eyelids are really heavy now. I got to sleep.

Till next time X

Dried blood.

2011-09-02T01:42:00.002+08:00

& after everything, you thought you'd learned, to let go of the pain. To stop the self-reproach.
You thought the guilt would go away. But it doesn't, it sticks to you. It forms a part of you, and every single second of desperation and lonely nights, it comes up. Out of nowhere, it reminds you again what kind of person you are, how repulsive and unworthy. It tells you and warns you not to get too happy, not to get too attached. Because

"Your failures and your faults. They stick with you. They globe into ugly,cancerous growths inside you and make you want to die."

I want to die, not because nobody's treating me right, not because nobody's treating me good. But because, I'm the black sheep. I'm in the wrong place, at the wrong time. Don't waste your time on me.

I was wrong.

2011-08-30T04:31:00.000+08:00

HAHAHHAHAHA WTF RIGHT I KNOW

& I thought wrong, yes I was so so so wrong. I thought you were different. Oh what's new. It's a damn cycle. I was so stupid. Wasn't I? All your lies I naively believed, all the promises I stupidly anticipated. & the worse thing is I'm just like you. I'm horrible. I really can't stand me sometimes. I really can't. I hate me too. I really do. Wishing I could be different, wishing I had the strength to push down the blade harder this time round, that more blood flows, too much. Then the world will be a better place.

Till I die X

Wish list #01

2011-08-29T15:21:00.001+08:00

1. StyleMint Plain Tees

Credits: StyleMint

I WANT THE CUFFED IN BLACK NUBUCK OMG *faints*

Isn't this just plain gorgeous?

2. Jeffrey Campbell Shoes

Credits: Jeffrey Campbell & SoleStruck

3. Ray-ban's ClubMaster

Credits: Ray-ban

This 3 wants can already take up my 2 month's pay. So I guess I'll keep this short. Till next time X

W47R; Formal

2011-08-28T15:06:00.000+08:00

These are some photos from the day we had our last communication module and we had to dress like this. It was a hell of a day. Very busy day I must say. We had to do up a formal presentation and do up our proposal and then we had to present in a formal setting but thank God it was only in front of our classmates. Since it's such a memorable day, our first time wearing formal together, we brought cameras and took pictures! Then we had dinner at NakedFish at Yck. It was a nice spending time with my classmates! Though the food was quite expensive, like I spend $20 on my dinner, it was worth it! Thank God my face lived in marsiling so Christine and I got a free ride back hehe awesome and tiring day I must say. But yeah, memories.

p/s more photos up on Facebook! Check 'em out if you haven't!

The Lion City; another year older.

2011-08-28T13:58:00.001+08:00

So on that patriotic day August 9th, I went to Marina Barrage with my primary school friends! It's been so long since I last hung out with them and it was really nice to be able to do that again!

So we spent our day having a picnic at the big grass land and entertaining ourselves by the flea and the owl that was on the ceiling, sleeping. Pretty cool huh that owl. The sun was literally burning us and I got sun-burnt after that day and boy am I still tanned. Thanks to my friends I got picked to answer some quiz for this activity that was held and they asked me to sing some national day song! I mean, please, who would ever. That'd be super embarrassing. So yeah I dragged sharon up with me and we got to answer some question about the five stars in the national flag. Like as if I know. So well, then it was time to watch the national day parade and we huddled near the screen, watching the scenes from the screen and with every explosive effects, we'd turn around and see whether we could capture it. Then well, after all the drama, finally it was time for the fireworks! It was amazing! Love fireworks. Heh.

Oh the horror after everything ended, the place was so packed, there were so many cars and the whole place was just jammed. So we decided to walk to Marina Bay MRT station. & the journey was really... indescribable. We thought we were smart to go by this short-cut but in the end it led us to the highway. So we'd have to go all the way back. & we walked for like an hour? haha I can't remember. Thank God hui min's friend came and picked us up.

& I ended National Day with steamboat at my place with Ruth and Yong Qi! Had a great time hehe Awesome day <3

Maybe I was just too blinded to see, what was just in front of me.

2011-08-27T14:35:00.000+08:00

Hi I'm back to blogging. Yay for me 'cause exams are officially over. Though I kinda screwed up my Math paper I hope miraculously I will be able to get at least a D+ so I won't have to repeat my module. PLEASE AH TOLONG AH
Alright other than exams being over, I've to double up my work time so I can earn as much money as I can this holiday. However, I need to prioritize my time well so I can work and spend time with my friends as well. This holiday I've plans to go Genting with Jessica, Liling and Xe and I really hope we'll have a blast and it'll be a success! I've outings with my girlfriends I've to plan and also Batam trip with the girls as well.
I've like 4 overseas plans this other half of the year! It's crazy. I'm like so broke i don't even have money to eat I've so many plans to go overseas. I really hope I can earn enough!

p/s Will blog about NDP day and Formal Wear Day very very soon. Stay tune X

Oh and well, last night, I've had some really good thoughts while working. I got sick and tired of having to drown myself in misery, I got disgusted by how I've to drink, smoke to make myself feel better, have to club and then drunk call/text people. It's pathetic, really. This isn't the lifestyle I want. Yeah everyone has shit that happens to them, be it getting dumped by someone, family problems, health problems anything at all. & I hate how I've to go into this 'Temper Zone' where I complain about how sucky my life is, about how I've to end my life and all that bullshit. Seriously. It finally got to me how, totally, immature and repulsive that was.
I know there are people way worse than me, for example yeah the starving Africans, those kids who've to worry about not having ANYTHING to eat at all. They worry for survival. But for me, I've a family, even though they don't support me financially anymore, I still have them. I have friends who care for me, even though I'm a bitch most of the time and I know how sucky I am, they still loves me and despite all my mistakes and flaws, they stuck with me.
I have enough of having to think about what the fuck I was born to do. I had enough of doubting, truth be told. I had enough of having to wonder day and night why I was born. Why. Do. I. Have. To. Live. WHY?! I was really just a mistake after all, I nearly got aborted. I've always felt like I don't belong anywhere. The people I got attached to, weren't my friends anymore. I betrayed and disappointed my friends. I've done horrible things to people I don't even know. I live with guilt every single day. I self-reproach. I cut myself to make myself feel so much better. That the littlest pain I feel, the intention to hurt myself, at least, I could make up for the pain I've done to others. But I know it'll never be enough. The pain is incomparable. I know that. But it doesn't stop me from cutting myself.
After everything I've been through, I'm done. I'm done hoping another guy would come into my life and make me feel better. I'm done wishing for a guy to love me for who I am I'm done wishing for some prince charming to take away my pain and bring me to his castle and live happily ever after. I'm numb, baby. I don't fucking care about anything anymore. Yeah I can care, I care for people, but if you want to leave me, there's nothing I can do about that so I shut myself down and don't think. I just live. I breathe. I go through each day like this. Breathing. All the fun, all the happy times I could make? I give them up. I just live life alone going through school going through work, just going through things.
I don't care anymore. I don't bother anymore I don't try anymore I've lost hope I've ... I became nothing.
Until I came back, and there was the thought of, where has God been in your life? and I knew. I've been in a maze all throughout and there was just this short cut that could get me straight to the end but I was just too blinded to see. I was blinded by selfish desires of my own. Things happen, for a reason. God knows everything, He knows the choices I would make and He knows the small minute insignificant pain I feel and He's just there, opening his arms to me, to make me feel better but I couldn't see, I didn't want that, I wanted someone human. God could/would never ever disappoint, and I chose to let go of that. Talk about stupidity.
& so I'm done, with this verses from Romans 8:38-39

For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.

2011-08-21T14:28:00.001+08:00

& Once again, my blog is dead. It's only because I'm having my exams next week, which is actually this week 'cause Sunday is the start of every week. So yeah, I'm busy studying, or should I say busy getting distracted by twitter and tumblr and it'd be too much for me if I get distracted by blogging. So I did not attempt to update my blog. Ok that's a lie. I wanted to blog about my wishlist for this month and I just came up with a good idea of blogging about a new wishlist every month. Hmm.. I shall see how it goes. Meanwhile, let me entertain you with this patronizing post and also, look forward to belated posts on my sister's wedding day and National Day. & If you're interested, my tumblr is active most of the time.

http://www.yespleaseashley.tumblr.com

Be my guest and entertain yourself through thoughts of mine from the tumblr world.

& here's something I'd like to share with you guys that I felt was really true to what I'm feeling now.

Another Saturday Night..

2011-08-14T01:45:00.000+08:00

This was another saturday night I went to powerhouse with my colleagues from Ben & Jerry's. We bought drinks at Holiday Inn and drank under the bridge outside St. James. I felt like puking after a few cups of Sprite with Chivas. I guess it was the whiskey. I remembered a couple of weeks back I had Martell and I guess I drank too much I puked all over. I totally had a puke fest. No kidding. It. Was. Horrible. After that day the smell of Whiskey turn me off. So I guess it affected me a little, a couple of drinks and I couldn't stand it anymore. So our little warrior Jessica drank the most! She had like more than 6 cups and those cups were half filled with Chivas. We were playing drinking games and I guess her luck were a little off that night so she had a lot to drink. Li ling just sat there and chill, even though she had headache and a bad cough, she still accompanied us and that was awesome. We met some new people at Powerhouse and the night or should I say morning, ended well with breakfast at Macdonalds. Looking forward to another night with the girls <3

Happy Birthday Sis!

2011-08-14T01:26:00.000+08:00

So on the 5 Aug, I celebrated my sister's birthday! Since both of my other sisters couldn't make it as they were overseas, so it's only left with me! First, I went to Kovan to meet my sister and went to fetch her son from childcare. Then we headed to her place, got ready and fetched her husband and we went to Changi Airport for dinner at Swensen's. It was a small birthday dinner, nothing much but I really hope she had a good day. Even though Travis was crying like crazy and she forgot to make a wish before blowing her candles, I wish her all the best in her marriage and her work. It's hard being a mother but I know she has the strength to carry on. Hehe love you sister always. Hope you like the birthday card I gave you, even though it's nothing much!

Bringing you back..

2011-08-10T16:24:00.000+08:00

Hehe here's bringing you back to the present. ME NOW.

haha I'm at RP's library just skipped OB class and I know I'll definitely get an F because I did nothing today. I reached school at 11 and I left at 1. Awesome much? Not planning to do quiz and rj because I've sealed my fate. Other than that, I'm currently loving my henna and I'm going to get down to studying. I've done notes for OB and Cog but not Communication and science. All the best for everyone's UT3 (those who're in RP) Don't miss me too much! xoxo

Sis' Hen's night

2011-08-10T16:16:00.000+08:00

The hen and her sister!

Ash and Les! hahaha

Sisters <3

The 3 Ho sisters! (missing out the eldest one :'( )

Hehe Bride-to-be! <3

Woohoooooo

Took picture with this hot guitarist at Shanghai Dolly!

So I shall backtrack a bit, on 9 July, I went to my sister's hen's night, celebrated at Shanghai Dolly! It was my virgin trip there and I must say, it was an eye opener.

So much different from powerhouse, obviously. The songs were different! There were live bands playing Cantonese songs and well, it wasn't my kind of place. But it was interesting, being in a different environment and being with so many older adults. I swear I was the youngest there. Seriously.

So we drank, listened to music, chatted, took pictures, danced and the night ended off well!

A little bit weird to be clubbing with your sisters though. Like they're all 6 years/10 years older than me.

Oh yeah and there was this guy who treated all of us girls to Jaggerbomb(if I didn't spelt wrongly). hehe awesome much?!

Heh Happy Marriage sis!
(next up: Her Wedding Day)

Frog Farmmmmmmm

2011-08-10T15:13:00.001+08:00

YAY went to the Frog Farm on 23 July with Syahilah! hehehehehe It's where I've always wanted to go! It might be weird to some but I really like frogs! (But yeah I'm afraid of touching them or even holding them)
So on a Sunny Saturday, met Syahilah at msl mrt and we headed to cck and took a bus down to the frog farm. We nearly got lost, luckily I asked the bus driver where to stop and thank God we didn't give up. The frog farm is located further inside the ulu place and we walked and walked and it felt like eons passed as we trudged ourselves in the heat and there were stray dogs barking at us as we laugh and chat and well, it was quite a horrifying walk despite being in broad daylight but everything was fine when we reached the place 'cause we get to see the frogs!

Something that Syahilah and I really liked were the graffitis! Very nice to camwhore with! hehehe

<3 Bfffffff <3

My favorite photo! (fb dp too!)

Awwwww kissed by Frog Prince!

Yes and I love my doc marts hehe

After walking through the small area filled with frogs, being mortified, screaming, taking pictures under the hot sun, I feel ice cream is really just what we needed.

& guess what we bought? Heheh yup the frog hairband! It's so cute right! Even cuter on Syahilah and I HHAHAHAHAH

Heh yup those are my eyes! My green eyes woohoo!

HAHAH Look at syahilah's face! Her face is like this the whole time! She was even shouting and clinging onto me the whole time! Actually the first time we went to the frogs area we were both really terrified that the frogs would jump out on us! Thank God they didn't.

Actually the frog farm didn't really impress me, I thought it'd be more, high tech? I just never thought it was that run-down. But oh well, I get to see frogs, hear 'em croak, I'm a happy girl. hehehe

LO AND BEHOLD..

MY BUDDIES!

Heh so cute right OMG hahaha

After the frog farm trip, we took the Kranji Express and the driver dropped us at some Koi Farm to take a look around! The fishes were really cute and I must say, we saw the LARGEST fish we've ever seen IRL! hahaha I mean it was huge! Too bad my camera is too sucky to be able to capture it on camera but it was even larger than syahilah! I'm serious! hahaha

Our dinner!

Usual pose. hahha

The lettuce were too big for me to bite!

Then we headed to town, had our dinner at Macdonalds and went for the 'Twisted' preview! I just blogged about it so if you haven't watched it, it's your loss! hahaha

Hehe both wearing green footwear. Awesome or what! She wore her green flats because it's 'my' day so she went green! hehe <3

After the movie, we were both super tired, we even had to stand all the while until Marsiling!

Headed over to my place to shower and brought my stuff over to Sya's! This year we were really too tired to take pictures :'( We even brought all the cute hairbands over to Sya's place and after watching the first part of NYM, we both fell asleep!

In the morning, we watched 'Devil' and 'Hot tub time machine'! Both were good movies and I must say 'Hot tub time machine' was hilarious! hahaha and yes Sya's parents bought me breakfast too! So sweet of them hehe

& so we ended our day with movies and here we are looking forward to our next outing together during her Birthday month! xoxo

Patience is a virtue.

2011-08-08T12:03:00.000+08:00

Hehehehe hi hi people! I knowI've not updated my blog for a very long time...
But I've many things to blog about! I've written up a draft about my trip to the Frog Farm and blogger + photobucket sucks because my photos are taking a very long time to upload and that's pissing me off. Ugh.
Also, I wanna blog about my sister's mini birthday celebration and my trip to powerhouse on saturday with Jessica and Li ling! Although there weren't much photos but hey, my blog is to store memories so yeah, I'm gonna blog about them!

So watch this space people, updates coming up soon!
(hehehe if you're not interested then. you. can. leave. :'( )

If you so happen to see this, and you know who you are, your 'move on my dear' is the same as the words on that photo up there. It didn't make me feel any better and it won't.

Are you TWISTED enough?

2011-07-26T01:30:00.000+08:00

So I was lucky enough to be able to watch the preview of 'Twisted' on Saturday, a local movie directed by Chai Yee Wei starring local artistes, like Mark Lee and other famous celebrities from Hong Kong, Malaysia and Taiwan!

I brought Syahilah along and we had a great time watching the movie and well lucky enough, we were early to catch the Press Conference! The cast and the director were there to publicize the movie! It was really crowded as everyone was bustling with excitement about the new film and what the casts wanted to say about it!

Here's a glimpse of the cast! hehe

When we got our tickets! We were really filled with enthusiasm about the new film as we are the first few people to be able to watch the film before it comes on the big screen!

Getting all ready to laugh and scare ourselves at the same time!

And as we were just waiting for the show to start, the cameraman and some guy came and started talking about different sponsors and then the casts came and spoke to us!

They were all hoping we would enjoy the movie and boy did I enjoy it! hehe

Hahaha my face totally showed how 'scared' I am while waiting for the movie to begin! It didn't help that they were playing spooky tunes!

Another photo of the cast!

Here's the trailer for you to get to watch a little bit of what it'd be like:

So after watching the movie, many thoughts came into my mind! But first, for those who're afraid of horror movies and have sworn off them because you can't sleep at night if you ever watch one, DON'T WORRY BECAUSE 'TWISTED' ISN'T REALLY THAT SCARY AFTER ALL. I'm serious! It's a horror comedy so come on! How scary can it get? But ok I admit there were a few scenes that can get you looking through your fingers and jumping in your seat but well other than that few scenes, it's mostly just gonna get you laughing.

It is really damn funny. There were a lot of scenes that were so lame you couldn't resist laughing! Look at the poster above and tell me which part of it is sane? hahaha

& well, if you're a Singaporean, YOU DEFINITELY HAVE TO WATCH IT BECAUSE THERE WERE A LOT OF SINGAPORE HUMOR IN IT. Wanna know what I mean? GO WATCH IT.

I honestly didn't expect how funny it'd be 'cause it really got me laughing out loud in the cinema!

Alright, here's more about the movie itself. It has 3 parts of it that is intertwined. Different stories that actually come together at the end. & in each part, it tells a different kind of horror and a different kind of humor.

The first part shows the scene between Mark Lee's character and how he dealt with a crazy DEAD girlfriend!

The second part of the movie was about how a party night between the Air stewardesses and Air stewards GONE ALL WRONG!

& well the third part of the movie? It is centered upon a possessed daughter and some dark secrets...

I felt that the last part of the movie when they sort of sum up everything, they did it good. It. Was. Hilarious. Not gonna spoil it for you but go on and watch it.

OH and something else I really liked about the movie is the part when the Indian Father and son comes on. Really. In those 3 parts of the movie, the both of them comes out and just pay attention to them 'cause they really are just the best. hahahaha

Alright, be sure to catch 'Twisted' in the cinemas! You definitely won't regret it! xoxo

P.s Thank you omy.sg for making it possible for me to watch the preview!

Cut Cut Cut

2011-07-15T15:12:00.002+08:00

YAY I've managed to dismiss all advices out of cutting bangs and well, went to cut bangs!
Went to FEP for my naval piercing with Jolyn and after that, she accompanied me to cut my hair. There're people who think that I look better with my previous haircut but I'm really sick of long fringes.

HEHEHEHEHE BYE BYE

p/s omg I'm watching 'You're beautiful' now and Jang Geun Suk is fucking hot *melts*

Eugene's Birthdayyyy

2011-07-07T11:24:00.001+08:00

Heheheh Celebrated Eugene's Birthday today!

Met up with them at RP then we headed to Jack's place at Civic Centre for dinner!

We were like 10 minutes late for the student meal but since we had like 14 people, they extended the time for us! AWESOME OR WHAT!?! hehehe so we all had Student meal since it's cheaper haha

Cynthia, me and Eugene!

EUGENE FOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Hehehe taking a photo with Meiwei and xe's birthday card!

Heheh boo & I!

Meiwei!

Uhm.. Gay?

We were all clueless as to where to go after dinner and since we had like $8 plus remaining from the dinner we decided to buy something for Eugene.. But we just don't know what to get.

& I can't remember who had the smartest idea to buy whipped cream to spray on Eugene and since we were all rather mean people, HAHAHHAAHA we went to Fairprice and bought whipped cream and flour! We totally trash the entire place outside civic centre and I'm not even sure I should upload the video in case I/we get fined or whatever for vandalism. I just hope we will not 'cause it's EUGENE'S BIRTHDAY VIDEO!!! Have to upload no matter what. Hope we don't get on stomp too. hahahha

The best damn thing he ever received for his birthday hahahaha

Everyone oh so happy after bash-ing Eugene!

Hehehehehehe SMILE FOR THE CAMERAAAA

All the boys!

Hehe I hope you had a fun day! Here's the videooooooooooooo:

LOVE YOU EUGENE <3

Meow Meow

2011-07-04T15:37:00.001+08:00

I'm a kitty cat. If you don't like kitty cats then you don't like me
>:(

hahaha lame. bye UT 2 now. ROAR

Forget.

2011-07-03T14:59:00.000+08:00

Been living a very fucked up lifestyle. Don't know why I let it happen to me again. But all things came to an end and well, all we have to do is forget everything, or just place the memories at the back of our head and wish that it'll disappear.

Sorry for the lack of updates. Have been really busy and well, there's nothing much to blog about anyway. Tomorrow's my UT2 and I've to really study for it. I don't wanna repeat a year or repeat a module.
I prayed for a sign and I really got it. So oh well, it's time to let go.

Oh, tumblr.

2011-06-28T16:11:00.001+08:00

Fine, I’ll admit it. I think of you every second of every day. you are my favorite subject to talk about. When I hug you I wish I was allowed to never let go. Most of my dreams have you in them. I always get excited when I get to see you again and I’ve completely and totally fallen for you.

I want someone to take me out on a genuine date.

Sometimes you need a breakdown. One of those yell at everyone, cry until you fall, and can’t breathe kind of breakdowns. Then you feel better. And if you don’t, then at least people know you’re not okay.

Love comes when the manipulation stops; when you think more about him than his reaction to you and when you dare to reveal yourself fully, when you dare to be vulnerable.

There are things we don’t want to happen, but have to accept. Things we don’t want to know, but have to learn. And people we don’t want to lose, but have to let go.

You say that you love rain, but you open your umbrella when it rains. You say that you love the sun, but you find a shadow spot when the sun shines. You say that you love the wind, but you close your windows when wind blows. This is why I am afraid, you say that you love me too.

What do you think?

2011-06-24T15:51:00.002+08:00

You think you’ve found the solution to end your lonely days. You think you’ve found the key to happiness. You think nothing could ever bring back those emo bugs. You think you’ve found a partner. Someone, to be there for you when you’re lonely, when you’re down. Someone who’ll always be there for you and never never hurt you. You think you’ve found the reason to living. You think, that your life is perfect now. Everything is slowly falling into place. Your friends, your new guy in your life. You think that all the bullshit in the past, will stay in the past. You think that your friends will love you and the new guy in your life will bring you everlasting joy and nothing will ever destroy well, everything that is happening in your life now! But yes, you thought wrong. Everything, eventually passes. Including happiness. Including all your friends. Including the guy you thought could make you happy for a very long time. Nope I didn’t say forever. But still, he didn’t. & as time passes, everything fades away. Everything dulls. You get sick and tired of one another. Then what? nothing. You go back to feeling like shit.

Under the coconut tree we stay.

2011-06-24T15:17:00.000+08:00

Photos from the Mega Kitty event a week ago! It was packed with people! I swear the queue was fucking long. Like seriously, all the way pass dragonfly. hahaha thank God my friends came early and they could get in early.

Rina and I! (I hope you had a good time even though you've had some bad encounter!)

Peg & I!

Xe and I! (hehehe sorry the queue was fucked up!)

My hubbyyyyyyyyy

The boysss

My favorite girls! muacks

Our guest list ticket! hahaha

A picture with the kitty catttttttttt

On the dance flooorrrrrrrrr

With Jacob and Andreiiii (I know I look shitty but who cares)

All my best buds! woohoo

And well, the Mega Kitty event was considered a success, so many people went! Peg and I only got into Powerhouse after 2am! As we had like very little alcohol, (only beer), it was quite boring. But thanks to John, he treated us to Graveyard! hahah but by then it was almost 5 so oh well, I still had a lot of fun with everyone! Thanks to those who got their tickets from me muacks muacks to all of you!

YAY Ladies night! <3

Peg, Me, Xanthe and Michelle!

Peg & I!

Xanthe & Michelle!

Xanthe & Peg!

Another group photooooo

Michelle and I!

Ladies night was awesome as well. Before going down with the guys, I went to meet Jabez for dinner! It was like damn long since we met and we chatted about everything there is! hahah & well went to find the guys at 515 before driving me back to make up, then we headed to Powerhouse! Found the girls and we had a blast! hahhaa only for awhile though 'cause I had to leave early :'( But I still had an awesome time. heheh Thanks to KC's friend, Daryl(?) who treated me to Graveyard. It was awesome. Didn't get to get my free drinks as the queue was super long :'( Oh well.. hahah but yeah, had an awesome time. Can't wait for this Sat! Willis' birthday celebration heheh <3

Sentosa!

2011-06-08T14:28:00.000+08:00

So well an impromptu decision to head down to Sentosa! Peggy called me in the morning and told me to wake up and get ready to go Sentosa. As a good sport, I went to prepare and they picked me up, we went to wake Gary up, had brunch and headed to Sentosa!

Gary acting all gay. hahaha

Yup, like a gay...

Hehehe so cute right? Yong Qi bought it for me!

Settling downnnnnnn

Gary and I!

Peg and I <3

Spot Gary behind hahahaha

Siao girl wanna take photo with the sand ball she created! haha

OH NOOOOOO

After settling down at Siloso beach, sun-tanning, playing frisbee, playing with water, eating chips and all I couldn't take the sea water on me so we headed to Cafe Del Mar and chill.

With my 'Sex on the Beach' and Peg's 'Mango Tango'.

hehehe the 5 of us!

I look like small boy right omg

Andrew and I!

The 3 guys that Peg toll around since the day before hahaa

Then we showered there and got in the car to head for dinner! We were all wondering where to go and decided on some ulu place to eat zhi char.

After dinner we headed to Yishun Dam to slack awhile before heading home. It was a hell of a day and I had a lot of fun and I know they did too heheheh

Photobooth with friends heh

2011-06-08T00:11:00.001+08:00

hehehehheh so well, the other day I met xe and Andrei at cwp and well, they impromptu came over to my place! So we chatted, updated each other about what's happening in our lives (mostly I was talking..)
So Xe randomly suggested to take some photobooth pictures to capture this moment of us in my room catching up! hahaha

Thank God for placing me in Chr, meeting them and knowing them and well being friends with them! I'm sure we'll continue to be friends for a very long time! heheheh

Miss all my secondary school friends! <3

Ladies night once again!

2011-06-04T17:27:00.000+08:00

Hehehe so it's the HOLIDAYS CAN I HEAR YOU SCREAM ROARRRRRRRRRR ok chill.
For us RP students, we only have 1.5 weeks of holiday. Which is really sucky ugh. But oh well. At least it's better than nothing!

Charmaine, Chelsia and Ashley!

hehehehe <3

At Chelsia's place waiting for Qiwei to come pick us up!

heheh then we all arrived at Butter Factory!

All the taitais except for Peggy :'(

HEHEHE SO CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

<3 <3

Xan and I! <3

Charm and I <3

The girls again!

Awwww Xan and her bf!

Hehehe Chelsia and I <3

So yes on Wednesday I went to Butter Factory with Xanthe, her bf and their friends and Chelsia, Charmaine and Qiwei. It was ok I supposed? I mean, we had fun among ourselves drinking and all but when people started coming in and us trying to get to the dance floor, that killed everything. It was so crowded I really didn't like it.

So well Xanthe and her bf quarreled too :'( But now thank God everything's fine.

Xan and her bf and them all left so Chelsia, Charmaine, Qi wei, Eugene and I headed to Powerhouse!

We stayed there for awhile before going back home.

Oh well, it was a fun night no doubt! Looking forward to the Mega Kitty Event on 13 June at Powerhouse! heheehehe